Deep inside i wanna hide or even cry, maybe bury myself somewhere in a hole so far away from reality.. my heart aches.. feels like fire... never knew of lust until now.. never knew of such sorrow until this moment of time... do i love myself enough to put ME first? ... and not some WOMAN ... or should i say GIRL? im constanly thinking contemplatin on what im going to do next.. what im going to say.. should i call? should i text? so weak of me to hold on.. and still care about her.. and her selfish feelings... she‘s got the best of me i must admit.... i feel as if i cant live without her.. but deep inside i know i CAN! the sad fact is that she knows she got me wraped around her little finger.. she knows i aint going anywhere........ ha ha... which gives her more leway to do whatever she pleases to...... O.. how i feel so sore.. so neglected..... not worthy..... of love...!!! but everynight as i reflect back and reminise bout the good ole times shared with her.. i smile .. and bliss greets me impatiently........ but the bad outways the good...... and i know im worth more...... I know deep inside my soul that i DESERVE better.. more...... its not jus Beauty that i have.. i have inner strength.. inner power.. a wonderful heart a beautiful mind.... a incredible soul... BUT when.. when will i learn.. to put myself first....... and love myself first............... like GOD says.... put no trust in a WOMAN... put your trust in me.......!!!!!!!!!!!!and thats what i plan to do because... no one else matters.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO me!!!!!!!!!! BUT MY LIL BRO TIMMY WHO SOME HOW KNEW EXACTLY HOW I WAS FEELIN! Dam Street Life